The Sudden Fear Has Left Me Trembling

2010-04-08T13:40:00.002+08:00

Time is making fools of us again. What's gone is gone so there's no point nor uses of coming back again. 2 years time doesn't seems long or short, but who knows what will you be at by then . And if i tells you that cried one day , reason is because i misses you alot, would you lend me your shoulder; for me to cry on?

Life has been great lately i guess.
Except that i'm leaving soon as i've yet found a solution to let go of something which i can never have.

Recently, i caught 2 yoshi from marina square. One is in green colour and another is in red. I also tried to separate them up so that i can remind myself of her ,because they(me and her) can never be together. So i told her to take the red yoshi no matter what happened.Regretted for saying those mean/harsh words to her but i doubt she cares anyway.
Saying sorry or buying stuff for her can never mend back the time which she has wasted talking to me as she can use it on something useful like, studies.

Aiya i can't believe i typed such an 'ironic' paragraph . There will definately be obstacles in life one what so don't laugh -.-

Time to meet donovan now so

bye.

OMG I FOUND A PAD UNDER MY SISTER'S DRAWER
WTF

2010-04-07T20:59:00.002+08:00

Have alot to post but i'd no idea where to start from

My loneliness has slowly grown

2010-04-03T20:59:00.006+08:00

Black or White?
Montblanc Wallet or Burberry Wallet?
Dickies Backpack or Fourskin Backpack?
Pull And Bear Shoes or Vans Vintage Shoes?
Uniqlo Long Sleeve or Punkstar Long Sleeve?
Contact Lens or Spec?
Beanie or Strawhat?
Skinny Jeans or Rolled Up Jeans?
ODM Watch or G-Shock Watch?
Being in a room with a person you love but know that you can cannot have her or with a person you love and once had?

Why?

Why must we always have to make a decision between 2?

Eventually, life just suck.

And

i'm starting to hate myself.

2010-04-03T00:21:00.003+08:00

Wednesday,was the worst day ever. And i swear i'll never do that again. April fool day was fine i guessed. Out for the whole night with eugene and company. As for today, met bernard at suntec. Spent 40 dollar plus on arcade but managed to catch 2 toys. Met jh and karen for dinner and homed.

I'm sad

2010-03-30T17:12:00.004+08:00

Met jh, ber and the rest @ 9. Had breakfast in burgerking and off to sentosa. Played in silso beach until 2plus and it started to rain:(
So went to wash up and stuff. Left there around 3 plus and headed back to vivo. Jh and the rest went to kbox while ber accompanied me to take my xray report from rmc.

Took train home after sending ber to orchard as he is meeting his friend there.

2010-03-29T02:22:00.003+08:00

It's a family day today. Dad drove us to eat dim sum .Tried braised chicken feet for the first time too.
Chinatown next followed by marina!
Granny also gave me $$, she asked me to get something for my friends before i leave.

Accompany bro to pasir ris because he's booking in today. Shopped in tampines for alittle while and headed to kovan to fetch mom. Had dinner with parents, granny and sis in aston express before going home!

Granny's smile made my day :)

2010-03-27T19:59:00.002+08:00

Admitted to hospital during thursday morning. Heard my mom and a nurse shouting for help after i fainted. Woke up and realised that i'm lying on a patient's bed. Had another fever jab after drinking a cup of hot milo.

Lazy to elaborate any further. All i wanted to say was, your family and true friends are the one who will always there for you. So, thanks jh and others , greatly appreciate it.
:)

2010-03-24T21:55:00.010+08:00

Went to fetch grandmother from airport today. Her purpose for coming to singapore is because she's undergoing an eye operation on april!

Ok, something funny happened today. I felt itchy-ness on my chest when i woke up this morning. At first, i thought it was just an mosquito bite. Then i started scratching until i realised that there are lots of redish things appearing on my legs and hands. Hence, my mom quickly asked my dad to bring me to the nearby clinic for injection. The doctor said that it was rashes.

Also, i'd have to go to the hospital if i runs a fever.

2010-03-22T21:46:00.003+08:00

Wtf? Bro seems to change my itouch theme into chipmunk before he left for ns yesterday and now i'm figuring out how to 'fix' my scooby doo back. Did nothing much today actually. Just had a dinner with meishan and sandy in amk and headed home

Yea if i'm not wrong, ite holiday will starts tomorrow. Also means that it'd be easier for me to ask most of my friends out for a chill and spend time with them.

10more days to april ;Time flies indeed!

2010-03-21T23:46:00.001+08:00

My friends say I'm a fool to think that you're the one for me I guess I'm just a sucker for love Cause honestly the truth is that you know I'm never leaving Cause you're my angel sent from above Baby you can do no wrong My money is yours Give you little more because I love ya, love ya With me, girl, is where you belong Just stay right here I promise my dear I'll put nothin above you, above you.

2010-03-20T00:29:00.008+08:00

Tuesday, had lunch @ j8 with ber.

Wednesday, jh,ber and glen forced me to watch dear john with them. Sucky show or let's just say i'm not into those romance show? Ah well..

Thursday, Sis brought me to the clinic because i'm running a fever.

As for today, dad sis and i went to fetch raymond home from army. Oh yea, we also had fruzen yogurt in whitesand. Waited for bro to bathe and stuff then headed to bugis for sheesha :)

I was

stupid over you,

but

what can i do?

Am also trying very hard to stop talking to you, so that i'll be able to forget you...

But that's what

i'd never want to.

2010-03-16T01:55:00.002+08:00

Ran out of paper after folding 739 stars...

Sigh

2010-03-14T22:27:00.003+08:00

Went to mom's shop to purchase some items because she doesnt wants to give it to me. Headed home after having our dinner @ hougang mall. Cannot imagine myself folding paper stars right now, am going to finish folding 300 tonight by hook or by crook

2010-03-13T21:16:00.003+08:00

Met yijie @ causewaypoint for awhile and homed. Had sort of a tiff with sis over topman/topshop and the conversation goes like this :

T:topshop and topman same
G:topshop for girls la
T:same what
link together
G:you go top shop buy clothes la
see people stare at you or not
T:T1 link together what
G:top man for man see the man word?
T:my fault lor
G:of course
T:Then why riverisland never put riverwoman or riverman lei
G:cause its an island
T:zara also what?
Why no zara girls and zara boys?
G:because there is such thing as top man already

Ok shall end now because my kfc delivery is here, so bye.
Bandito ftw :D

2010-03-12T23:41:00.005+08:00

Caught alice in wonderland at cathay with bernard, kim, jinghui and eugene. Great movie except the fact that there are 2 retarded bitch who is sitting right beside me. It's like wtf, what is wrong with alice riding on bayard(a dog's name)? Very funny meh? Laugh until so loud for what. Disgusting childish immature uncivillised stupid nerd shit no life r _ s girls. Go home read 3 little pigs la.

Sent kim home after having our dinner @ parklane's mac.

2010-03-11T21:58:00.003+08:00

Confused and mixed up;

Why do i feel this way?

Just don't feel like talking to anyone

2010-03-10T00:37:00.007+08:00

Dear diary,

I'm

Feeling
Miserable Right now

Upon

Hiding
Those

Feelings

To
Myself

I'm

Wondering

When

Would

I

Be Able
To

Tell
Her
That

I Love Her

Am
Really
Do

But

I

Scare That

She.....................

Nevermind.

If i meet them means i've to meet her. And if i meet her, would i feel reluctant to leave? Really confused.

I love her.
But i dont wish to waste my parents money again

:/

What should i do.

2010-03-09T22:06:00.003+08:00

Fucked up day thanks to the fucker who made me fall down today. Still have the cheek to tell dave that he's guilty for what he did. Come on , never heard of guilty is just an excuse to seek for forgiveness? Disgusting shit. Shall not elaborate any further.

Found out that anita admitted to hospital cause of appendicitis today right after donovan discharged.

Oh such a happy day ,not_l_

2010-03-08T23:34:00.016+08:00

Played pool with karen from 2.30 to 3.30. Took a walk from marina square to esplanade. Headed over to thecathay for dinner and homed.

One sided love is the same as falling in love with the moon. Wishfully staring at it, longing that it would be mine someday, however it can never be. This feeling may depress you for awhile, but usually people tend to get over it after some time. So when will it be my turn?

2010-03-07T23:37:00.009+08:00

when you try your best but you don't succeed ,when you get what you want but not what you need,when you feel so tired but you can't sleep,stuck in reverse,and the tears come streaming down your face, when you lose something you can't replace,when you love someone but it goes to waste. Could it be worse?

Felt useless in times when i see someone being so sad over some fucking stuff but yet i couldnt help in anything. This is how life is or maybe i shouldnt have cared in the first place? Spent 2 to 3 hours mapling with sis last night. Memories flashed when i logged into the account and many things came to my mind....

Everything started 5 years back when i was in primary 6. Fatty sold me her brother's maple account for 20dollars. Hence, i started to 'poke' those lame creatures in maplestory for more than 4 years. Hilarious yea? Managed to make some awesome friends like xiangyang , martin, pingping, gillian, nerd etc. But if i'm given another choice, i'd rather not to know them or pherhaps 'play' this game at all. Have to accept the fact that, fate brought us closer together

Today, waited for sandy to finish her lunch in thai express. Headed over to fairprice for my orange juice. Headed over to mom's shop for awhile and homed. Gonna meet karen tomorrow for pool :)

Ending with:

caryn peterson is hot.

2010-03-06T23:35:00.001+08:00

Mashed potato for supper. See this sister :D

2010-03-06T16:35:00.006+08:00

Wth didn't realise that i've so many cards in my wallet -.- Friday, met bernard, jing hui and the rest in tampines. Dinner @ bbq chicken then headed for billiard in safra.

As for today, woke up at 6.30. Half boiled egg for breakfast, dad drove us to pasir ris. Took the army coach to changi beach, followed by boat to tegong. Awesome much though it's just a 10-15mins ride.

The ushers then came to fetch everyone of us for a tour around tegong. It's super cool there, looks almost like a vila to me more than serving nation. They're also given a laptop each. And there are so called a 'relax room' beside their bunk which allows them to rest/play pool/computer when their free.

Proceeded over to auditorium for some talk. Bla bla bla so on and so fore. Shall stop here cause i'm too lazy to type out the rest. Oh ya, raymond's friend yong jie and his family members were there too. And his sister is freaking hot!)@$_#$> DOES THIS LOOKS LIKE BLUE MAROON? LOL

P.s/ Looking forward for bro to book out because i cant wait to see his bald cut.

2010-03-04T20:23:00.002+08:00

2010-03-04T03:00:00.004+08:00

Tell me how the fuck am i suppose to sleep when those inconsiderate neighbour next door are still walking around the corridoor, coughing and talking non stop right at this time? Disgusting shits.

Chill tim, chill. Nothing is able to bring you down. Except for some certain things. Ah well, should i or should i not wear contact lens? Some people said that i looks good in it while on the other hand, some people still prefers me for wearing spec. Am really confused. Anyway, cant wait to meet jon later to collect back my 100dollars. Hopefully he will turn up if not i gonna give him a punch on his damn face when i sees him next time despite the fact that it's just a hundred dollar.

2010-03-03T19:34:00.003+08:00

Found this comment in some forum about reglionism.
'告诉你们一个秘密！这是千真万确的事。星期天我有上教堂,初一十五我也有烧香，两边我都信。圣诞老人和财神爷也有共同点.圣诞老人派发圣诞礼物，财神爷也派发红包，两人都穿红色的衣服，都是男人.只要不教他人做坏事，因此两边我都信'

Read more from http://forum.omy.sg/showthread.php?t=8673 .(Just the screenshot) in case you turn blind after browsing through all the comments written in chinese. And you're reaction will be like 'What The Fuck'? How can a pastor make fun of buddhist and taoism? Destiny brings a person near to their belief. Means that everyone have their rights to choose which religion they wish to be in.

Anyway , i'm so touched by wei de because he came down from simei right after school just to have dinner with me :)

2010-03-03T03:34:00.005+08:00

Adam Lambert -Pick u up
Adam Lambert-December
Adam Lambert-Fields
Adam Lambert ftw

Oh fuck it's 3.34am right now and i'm still awake.

2010-03-02T22:08:00.001+08:00

Should i bleach this colour?

2010-03-01T19:00:00.004+08:00

Sunday, Celebrated last day of cny in warrent tan's house. Reached there around 4. Watched tv and stuff. Had charcoal steamboat, curry chicken and some buffet for dinner. Left at 8. Hopefully dad doesnt find out what raymond and i did to fat lard's room last night. If not we'll be dead.

As for today. Accompained sandy for lunch. Headed over to heeran. At first ,she asked me to choose a crumpler bag for her friend. So i chose a black one and she paid for it. Ended up she said that it's a gift for me -.-? Walked over to far east to get a cap for raymond.

First time my sister BOUGHT something for me and raymond.

2010-02-27T23:21:00.004+08:00

Friday,
Sneaked into this M18 show with raymond. Super funny and hilarious but too bad it's in french language. Agathe the main actor is a working, mean and racist lady. One day, she found that she had suffered from addison’s disease after she went for a check up.... Lazy to elaborate. So yea, go watch/ find a way to sneak into the cinema to catch this show yourself.

Headed to bernard's house after playing pool. Waited for gerald and dave's arrival before ordering macdonald lol. Had dota duel with bryan through internet but lost in the end. Watched 'My Sassy Girl' DVD. Out to the playground for a chat and stuff.

Saturday,
Took cab home from bernard's house. Mom nagged at me when i stepped into the house for placing all the mess on the floor. She asked me to keep everything before i sleep.Managed to find my chamander from a big brown box filled up with books. Woke up from my nap and there goes today.

2010-02-25T21:21:00.002+08:00

Thanks hazel for the box of chocolate.

2010-02-24T20:01:00.004+08:00

Helped out at my mom's shop today

And ,
i'm having this urge for wave house

Alot to say, but there isnt a need to.

2010-02-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

Moved to yishun today. Kinda disgusted by those neighbours in a way as they're over friendly.Thailand trip has been cancelled because raymond is going army in 2 weeks time. All the best, brother.

Left around 4pm to meet jiayi and donovan after i gotten my stuff unpacked. They planned to go for a pool game in marinasquare but failed to due to my objection. Wonder what's wrong with everybody? Or is this the 'P-O-O-L G-E-N-E-R-A-T-I-O-N' now? And pool balls is scary when someone happens to beg you for 3 day just to have a game with you. (You know who you are)

Dined in JustAsia. Caught wolfman with them, again-.-

Life is getting boring.
If only....

Ah well, stop dreaming.

2010-02-22T16:14:00.010+08:00

原来你早就想好,
你要留在谁身旁,我以为我够坚强,
却一天天地失望,少给我一点希望, 希望就不是奢望,
却输得那呢绝望

Is rotting at home today. Gonna 'chiong' Down With Love for now. Awesome show.

& Yang guo looks so adorable

Autumn's concerto next.

It's obvious, isnt it? Then why am i still lying to myself?

2010-02-21T19:59:00.004+08:00

Hope annoymous will feel better after ranting in my blog.
So here goes today,

Went home around 9 with raymond after checking out from chalet. Took a nap until 3. Met sandy in plaza sing. Shopped for hershirt. Walked over to park lane for awhile and had dinner @ longjohn in macdonald house. Dad fetched us home from there.

Pherhaps it's an illusion all along
Take all the things I've done for you and consider them my last

I hope it's instant, if only i can choose one memory that last for a second.

And would rather forget the road home than to any little details of her.

:'(

2010-02-21T01:02:00.007+08:00

Hello hello hello.....

An extra post here, which causes an increased of post in this blog of Tim's.

Over all, I have nothing to talk about.

I merely said that I needed to rant, Mr Tim allowed me :

I would sincerely thank you, for your kindness, cuteness & loveliness.

However, I will be just known as an anonymous.

I didn't want to dirty your blog, so, sorry.

I'm not gonna rant.

K thanks, bye.

I won't ever forget the attitude of how you treated me.

You are being so mean for screwing up my life,

for such a minor matter.

However, I don't think that I am totally at fault for this.

I'm not.

I have no idea what is wrong with you, but,

your attitude suck, very much.

I hate the way you does things.

It has been 10 days.

How long more do I actually have to wait...?

No matter how long I wait, it doesn't make any difference at all.

~~Hope~~ = Disappointments.

I have been waiting in vain...

Because I know, that day would never come.

Have

Stop

Get

Over

You

But,

How is it possible when I keep thinking about you?

2010-02-21T00:43:00.005+08:00

In chalet now. Using ryan's laptop to post.

19.2, Accompanied bernard to get mc. Went home to pack for raymond's chalet after playing arcade. Came around 6/7pm by bus. Dinner in ehub. Wiat boon bought chivas from fairprice. Returned back into the room and waited for the rest to come. Knocked down after 3pure cups.

20.2, Headache after woking up. Washed up and stuff. Bro's classmates and friends came. So i left to dte for awhile. Lunch in mac, while waiting for sandy. Started bbq around 6. Fiona and her sister (candy, if i'm not wrong) stuffed alot of food in my plate. Didnt eat much because i'm not feeling well. Bla bla bla , lazy to elaborate anymore. Bye

I miss my bed.

2010-02-19T00:58:00.002+08:00

Hey the previous post wasnt from me. Thanks kat for helping me in my blogskin.
Will be away from 19-21 for chalet...

I just wanna be alone tonight, i just wanna take a little breather. Cause lately all we do is fight, and every time it cuts me deeper. Cause something's changed, you've been acting so strange. And it's taking its toll on me. It's safe to say that i'm ready to let you leave

Without you, i live it up a ltitle more everyday, Without you, im seeing myself so differently. I dont wanna believe it then but it all worked out in the end. When i watched you walk away, well, i never thought i'd say i'm fine without you.

Awesome.

2010-02-19T00:51:00.001+08:00

Tim, you suck, much.

2010-02-18T17:03:00.002+08:00

Wednesday,
-Watched wolfman
-Meet fatty in marina square

Thursday,
-Passed dave memory stick

P.s/ I'm too lazy to post. Bye bitch

2010-02-16T22:13:00.006+08:00

15.02, Went to dad's brother house. Had sort of 'buffet' there. Didnt really enjoy myself because sandy wasnt there. Left around 7plus cause bro asked dad to fetch him to clarke quay for clubbing. Wanted to go in but i'm underage. So headed to bugis instead to meet ber and dave for sheesha and homed.

16.02, Breakfast in yiyin's house. Lao chee buy was there too. She gave sandy, raymond and i red packet but we left it on the sofa. Dad said she cried cause of our rudeness. But who cares? She deserved it anyway. And it's just $200. Not being proud or what, but dignity骨气(see my chinese so pro). If we take it = NO PRIDE AT ALL. So yea.

I gonna gain beer belly if i continue drinking heineken and carlsberg everyday -.-

2010-02-14T23:02:00.002+08:00

Mum scolded me for wearing black spec, shirt, roll up jeans and sneaker to mom's sis house. Reached there around 11? Played wii with roger, my youngest cousin while the rest were chatting about other stuff. This year was fine, i guess. As they didnt say any sacarstic stuff to me and i think it's because they know that i'm going overseas to study in april. Left there around 4. Headed to dad's sister house.

Bumped into warren tan when i walked into the kitchen. Disgusting. Dai di with raymond, sandy and rachal. Miracle that jon and others talked to me. Told my parents i gonna strike today's 4d if i buy. Had dinner and homed. Off to count $$ now, bye.

No point trying.

2010-02-13T22:55:00.011+08:00

What's so special about chinese new year? Parents dont allow me to go out yesterday and today just to prepare for today's dinner. And i wonder what's so special about warren tan and his family? Why cant they eat their reunion dinner else where? Why must they eat with my family? Further more they didnt even pay a single cent for the ingredients and stuff. Don't expect me to greet you just because you're one of my family memebers because i dont need one.

Ignoring is the best solution in times, isnt it so. No choice but to go to my dad's sister house tomorrow. Tired and sick of your criticizing. Dumb? Useless? Stupid? LOSER?.. say whatever you want :)

FML

2010-02-12T19:37:00.004+08:00

Stayed at home to help out with tomorrow's reunion dinner because i wasnt allow to go out today :(

2010-02-11T21:17:00.004+08:00

10.2, Shopped for women stuff or lets just say, gifts? Managed to get most of the stuff with karen's help.

11.2, Accompanied daddy to chinatown for cny goods. Disgusted by a china woman while i was eating because she digged her damn nose infront of me.

Fuck life

2010-02-10T00:46:00.003+08:00

is blogging through Ipod now. tried to sleep but can't. There's something which is stuck currently in my mind. I do not understand why I keep wanting or even forced her to find a boyfriend when I don't want her to. What the fuck is wrong with me?

2010-02-09T18:54:00.005+08:00

Gotten a belt in fareast because my old one spoiled. Met bernard for lunch in lido and trained home. Don't no what's happening to me these few days. Am feeling down and often get angry easily. My poor phone was one of the 'victim' yesterday. I don't no why i threw it real hard on the floor until it's casing broke into half. Is this a syndrome of pmsing? Can a guy gets it? If yes then...

2010-02-08T09:00:00.003+08:00

I hope that someone will be able to take care of her even though it's hard to get her out of my mind, but yet i'm trying to push her aside. Seeing everyone going to school really envy me. It would be wonderful if i can rewind back the time so that i can study hard, not waste my parents money and stuff like this will not happen. And like what sister had told me ''Going out doesnt means communication. Do i even say 'hey mom/dad, today i went to blah blah blah followed by what had happened when i came home?' No, i don't.'' This already shown how pathetic i am.

Saturday,Forgetten what i did.

Sunday, Went out with parents to buy electrical applicants from carrefour. Followed by groceries in giant. Headed to vivo, river island for both dad and mom's shoe and homed.

Time for 'Autumn's Concerto' and 'Down To Love' now. Bye

2010-02-05T21:15:00.002+08:00

Wednesday,

Watched 'Texas Chainsaw' and 'Bill And Ted Bogus Journey' at home.

Thursday,

Dad brought me to pasir ris for injection, dined in ananas cafe. Trained down to kallang, passed things to shihui and headed home.

Friday,

Took train down to tpy around 6plus in the morning. Loitered till 8 and bought a puff and packet of orange juice. Starling and rude eyes contact were on me when i'm sitting down the staircase eating my so called breakfast. The worst part is after when i finished eating, chewing a mentos while walking down the hub, a young little boy came up to me and shouted 'CANDY MAN'. His mom then apologised on behalf of him but i smiled and walked away leaving my heart, torn into pieces. Met bernard in orchard around 1. Accompained him to fareast to get his shoe and headed to kovan to meet up with karen and jh. Took cab home after having dinner in hawker centre while the rest went for sheesha.

累了

2010-02-02T19:09:00.003+08:00

Currently at jinghui's house. So ya, a short post before i go.Sunday, went out with my parents to choose my bed. Monday, out to cotton on for my slipper and a jacket for someone. As for today, bernard skipped school because jh is not feeling well so he asked me to accompany him to her house for a visit. And yea, the both retards are enjoying themselves out there while i'm here, entertaining myself with this bloody computer. Oh ya btw, i accidentally broke jh's sister guitar string but i pushed the blame to her 3 years old brother because he last touched it. Ok i feel bad but who cares LOL. Bye

2010-01-31T03:08:00.008+08:00

Dr. Kalish's 14 years of research with thousands of people worldwide who tried reunions with their lost loves shows that the most successful rekindled romances were between lost loves who had been 17 or younger at the time of their initial romances -- particularly first loves -- and had separated for situational reasons, such as "parents disapproved," "moved away," "went off to college," and just "too young".

Age of the couples when they reunited didn't matter for success of the reunion. Dr Kalish's participants ranged in age from 18 or 95. In fact, the older they were at the time of the reunion, the better their chances of success.

The rekindled romances were surprisingly successful the second time around (provided that the lost loves are single, divorced or widowed, and not already married!). In her 1996 sample of 1000 people worldwide, ages 18 to 95, 72% of them reported that they are "still together" with their lost and found love. Absence really does make the heart grow fonder!

First loves had the highest "stay together" rate --78% of her original sample had happily reunited and remained blissfully in love over their many years of marriage. 71% of them said that this was their most intense romance of all.

Rekindled love endures because the couples grew up together, they spent their formative years together, and many of the first loves reported that their high school sweethearts became "the standard" for all their other romances. They knew each other well; they attended classes together, knew each other's families and friends, shared roots and values. It is these similarities that form the strength of the bond. These romances are, at their heart, strong friendships as well as romances.

Remember that expression used for teenagers, "ranging hormones?" There is speculation that these chemicals form emotional memories in the brain. When the lost loves meet again, those memories are released by the familiar sight, smell, touch, sound of the long lost love. The feelings are comforting and familiar and also very sexually arousing.

Parents of teenagers, take note: the most common reason why these romances broke up the first time was "parents disapproved." Many of these couples were forcefully torn apart by their parents, with threats or manipulations, such as hiding letters from the sweethearts. When these couples reunited, they were very bitter and angry at their parents (dead or alive) for costing them many years when they could have been happily together. Many missed their childbearing years because of this breakup. And why did the parents react that way? They just "didn't like the person" their teen was dating. There is no way to predict, no way for parents to know what's right for their children. It should make parents think twice before they break up first loves.

If the lost loves are already married, don't go there! Don't even look up the person to say hello. Even good marriages were put in jeopardy by lost loves, according to Kalish's research findings. The people just didn't realize that the feelings come back, often VERY strongly.

And if the person was abusive in any way the first time, forget a reunion. Personalities don't change very much. The participants in Kalish's sample who succeeded with happy reunions had been pulled apart the first time; they did NOT check the box "we weren't getting along well."

In her latest, unpublished research, Kalish recently recruited a control group of adults who had never tried reunions, and asked them to answer the same questions about their first loves as her reunited participants; she found that most of these men and women do NOT want to go back to their lost loves and, in fact, they cannot understand why anyone would want to!

These are very intense romances. Before you begin any dialogue with a lost love, ask yourself if you could handle whatever occurred -- a rejection, a romance, another breakup with that person. If the answer to any of these is "no," it's best not to try.

Even when a rekindled romance ends, there may be no closure. Someone might be able to accept that the lost love romance will never work for them, but that will not close all the old adolescent feelings.

And the recent increase in extramarital affairs among Kalish's lost love participants indicates that these affair reunions are rarely successful -- most do not want to leave their marriages -- and these reconnections are typically damaging to the lost loves and to their families. Many married people who contact lost loves say they just "want closure."

Kalish has found that often there is no closure. The old feelings come back. Married people who want to keep their marriages should understand this before they contact a lost love. Sometimes people have to learn to live with these feelings, accept them as part of oneself, and dismiss them each time they come up. Understand that the feelings are normal, they won't go away, but that doesn't mean they have to be acted upon, or that it would help to act upon them.

But if you are single, divorced, or widowed, a reunion might be the best thing that ever happened to you. These romances are not fantasies. They are not nostalgia. They are not midlife crises. They are loves that were interrupted, loves that can last the second time around.

This article is introduced by crystal and can be found in http://www.singlescafe.net/love-loves-reunited.html

Someone asked me to post so ya, here it goes.. 'Woohoo', i'm happy because i finally bought a box for my keychain :) I forgotten what i did on friday. And for saturday which is today, i was being forced to my aunty house by my parents. Managed to survive after 2 to 3 hours of humillation. Headed to bugis for dinner, as usual we waited for sandy and raymond for like 30mins or so. Shopped in bugis junction for awhile and homed.

P.s/ I hate daddy's car because of the perfume.

也许我们当时年级真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
该怎么说让彼此选折但思念还转动

2010-01-29T00:38:00.005+08:00

Firstly, this irritating insomnia is killing. Secondly, i'm pissed off with some mother fucker. Thirdly, my life is screwed. Fourthly, i'm staring at the ceiling. Fifthly, i'm not emo. And lastly, i'm crapping. Nothing really changes, i meant like seriously. It's like as if i'm doing the same old thing over and over again. I guess i finally understands what's the meaning of BORED throughout my 16years on earth. Wow, chinese new year is around the corner and i'm so looking forward in it, NEVER.

Surely, looking down plus criticizing will be 'send' to me as a cny greeting from them to me. I always asked myself why cant they just shut the fuck up or mind their own business because many times of irritated leads to hatred. And pherhaps this is one of the reason why i hates my family so much.

Ok here goes my boring life,

Wednesday,

Met xy for lunch. She accompanied me to singapore post and forgotten what happened next.

Thur,

Took train to bugis. Waited for sandy at bj and saw pamela. Had lunch in the coffee shop near simlim square. Dad fetched us home after sandy bought her headset and speaker.

tim is sad.

2010-01-26T16:45:00.003+08:00

Browse through my folders and found this. If i'm not wrong, the picture was taken 3 years ago in ecp during our class chalet. Time indeed flies. Anyway, Dad told me that i'll have to go for a medical check up next week before going for the flu injection -.-

Caught 'The spy next door' in bishan gv with dave because he skipped school today. Awesome show. And alina foley is cute like swt. How i wish i could have a sister like her. Had fillet o fish for lunch and homed.

Oh, i think i should cut down the rate on blogging from now on as it's a fucking waste of time. So yea, bye bitches.

2010-01-25T20:43:00.004+08:00

Apparently, i went out alone today because most of them has schooling .Bought 2 iphone cases from plaza sing for $50, and i hope the person that i'm giving to will like it because paul frank is common -.-? Headed over to park lane for lunch and homed.

Off to bathe now, bye.

2010-01-24T21:11:00.002+08:00

Went out with my parents today, had breakfast in bugis and headed to og for garments. Dad then drove us over to clarke quay for dinner. A couple laughed at me when their daughter held my hand and mistaken me as her brother while waiting for sandy and raymond along the river. Embarrassment, loads

2010-01-23T23:57:00.005+08:00

No offence

BUT

I really hate those mother fuckers who only know how to show off in their studies,

especially

those who're in top school.

Hey ya to those,

bunch of childish sluts and bastards,

please do some self reflection in oneself,

before you get whack/punch,

by insulting people stupid or stuff.

I'm wondering why,

like seriously,

why can't you just shut the fuck up,

and not going around to criticize people.

Dont ever let me see you again,

or else i will not,

let you off so easily,

like today.
:)

2010-01-22T23:18:00.003+08:00

Thursday,
A china salegirl from spade shop asked me why i dont want to take another colour other than black after i purchased a shirt from her. And i was like what the fuck is your problem? I like what colour your problem isit, fucking bitch.

Friday,
Met wei de at marina around 6. Played arcade and had dinner in xin wang cafe. Accompained him to watson to get his chocolate bar and trained home while he went to find ber and company.

Forget me and treat it as if it had all been a dream that when you wake out of, you would have no memories of it.

2010-01-22T01:21:00.000+08:00

2010-01-20T21:54:00.001+08:00

我错了,

泪干了,放手了,后悔了,
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着,要怎么停呢?

2010-01-19T22:38:00.002+08:00

Picture shown above is alvin's favourite shop.

Met jing kai at ochard for lunch, walked over to dhoby gaut and passed by _____ shop. Wanted to go in but i'm not allowed to due to my age. Headed home after buying a guitar pick :S

2010-01-18T23:01:00.003+08:00

Woke up around 6plus by someone's msg. Had breakfast in rivervale's mall mac. Took a nap at the playground near community centre until noon -.- Headed to amk hub to meet raymond, mingde, and leon for lunch. Went sheesha near bugis, around 8 or 9 and homed.

♥

2010-01-17T22:25:00.004+08:00

Who is pink panther's best friend? Da lang, da lang ,da lang , da lang , da lang. 'Hi My Sweetheart' is really a fucking amazing show which made me cried, so amusing~
What's the point in ever trying to be happy when the very pursuit of happiness is what makes you miserable.

-Had breakfast with dave in hougang mall.
-A bloody fucking bitch almost made me fall down.
-Headed to kovan for a elmo.
-Tried doing tricks with scooter but ended up on ground.
-Accompained dave to mrt station.
-Cabbed to serangoon for dinner with family.

I'll definately burst one day if i .... sigh

2010-01-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

Sen No Yoru Wo Koete

I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There’s something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

2010-01-16T19:07:00.003+08:00

Slept at 4am yesterday and woke up at 8. Went out with jh, ber, kel, jia yi,gary,ming yi ,and eileen to buy cny clothes @ 11. Meet at bugis, some of us managed to buy some tops in topman. Headed for lunch in pasta mania and trained to vivo. The girls went in river island and forever 21 for their clothes while the guys went in pull a bear followed the rooftop to wait for the rest. Homed around 6.

Oh yea, i bought almost everything black for cny even though some people already warned me not to. And the more they dont wish me to do ,the more i will not suffice. I know i had changed but what has caused all these? :)

2010-01-15T17:57:00.010+08:00

Pictures shown above is my dog, nameless which had already passed away. Sorry to remove some of it due to 'lag-ness'.

Ah well, dont feel like blogging today so bye~

2010-01-14T21:10:00.003+08:00

Don't say you know me when i dont even know myself.
Don't say you love me when you dont mean it.

Managed to sleep only 2 hours today. Walked to punggol beach around 8 in the morning. Had a shower after i reached home and went out with sandy. Accompained her to river island in vivo for her shoes and headed to forever 21 to get her dress. Lunch at burger king and homed.

Sunrise tomorrow anyone?

2010-01-13T22:04:00.004+08:00

2% of the people think; 3% of the people think they think; and 95% of the people would rather die than think.I belongs to the 95% because i have never felt that I’'v been valued by anyone. I’m just a waste of space that everyone ignores, like a ghost without a home

-Yesterday, they gave me $400 to shop for my cny stuff but i don't seems there's a need to.
-Bought 2 shirts from messy shop in amk hub.
-Took cab down to junction 8 and had lunch with kai wei.
-Trained to bugis.
-Gave $20 to an old lady selling tissue and she wanted to give me 60 packets of tissue but i ran away instead.
-Played arcade in iluma.
Homed

Why should i ever care?

2010-01-12T21:13:00.005+08:00

下一站，幸福.

2010-01-11T22:18:00.003+08:00

How fucking big the world is? Beats me anyway.

Breakfast with T.huijuan and her brother in punggol plaza. Chatted with them for quite a while and went skateboarding with dave. Quarrelled with him over a samatha girl from his school because he insisted that she's pretty but she's not to me. Oh well, really sorry cause i know that i don't have the rights to judge anyone.

What i miss overall was a smile which cannot be replace.

2010-01-10T20:15:00.003+08:00

It's impossible for me to,

Express my feeling for you,

With any words from this earth.

2010-01-09T22:42:00.005+08:00

I gonna summary up what i did today because i'm too lazy to update.

-Ate breakfast with bernard in macdonald.
-Went his house for ps3
-Headed plaza sing to get my keychain.
-Made someone fall today.

2010-01-08T21:31:00.002+08:00

Am i really going to walk this lonely path all alone by myself?

Accompanied jh and ber to simei ite for their first day of school. Felt happy for them because they can get into the course they want after approaching the head of deparment. Walked from there ite to expo all by myself, thinking about what dad and mom told me yesterday.

They're right too actually, which parents doesnt wants to see their children success in the future? I'm really sorry for what i said to them the other day. But why cant they let me choose what i want. Confusion is the only thing that i can feels from now. Trained to changi airport and had my lunch in burgerking and took bus home from there.

2010-01-07T22:46:00.002+08:00

Went out with T.hui juan today. Accompanied her to the clinic for medical check up. Trained to amk and treat her lunch. Headed to mini toon and she bought me a pig in exchange. Took cab home after returning her books at bugis. Hmm thanks for cheering me up :)

I dont want to leave :/

2010-01-06T21:49:00.003+08:00

Life is depressing when you cant get the things you want, likewise to study. I kept thinking why the heck did i failed the appeal again and again. What's wrong with it? Hey look, even a sucker who scored 9points can get into the course he wants. But what about me? I scored 7 points yet i couldnt get into the course i want and dont even feels any satisfaction at all.

I used to feel at least a tinge of sadness or dissapointment whenever they shouted at me but this time i felt nothing because they didnt make any sense this time. They'll only blame me for not studying hard cause of the outcome.

Today was a totally bullshit. Slept for 2 hours yesterday, woke up at 9 to check my appeal. Went out with bernard to clarke quay, wanted to go for a drink at his house but i promised someone that i wont drink anymore. Headed to plaza sing for lunch. Took train back to punggol, meet up with the rest for awhile and walked to punggol beach. Slacked there until 7plus and homed.

I fucking miss schooling, because i hate going to shatec/ overseas for studying.

2010-01-05T21:54:00.004+08:00

Met bernard and jh at hougang. Trained to orchard , lido for chipmunks 2. Had lunch in subway. Headed to bugis to meet kelson, fion, deming, jiayi, whitney and cy. So awkward and funny to see them in ite uniform lol. Went sheesha followed by dinner at pastamania in bugis junction. Dad fetched me and bernard home while the rest went clarkequay.

1 day left. Oh fuck, i really hate the feeling of waiting.

2010-01-04T23:15:00.003+08:00

And when i was about to quit my drinking habit, Ray bought for me another bottle of vodka .

When your down and troubled
And you need a helping hand
And nothing, whoa nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon i'll be there
To brighten up even your darkest nights.

You just call out my name
And you know wherever i am
I'll come running, oh yea baby
To see you again

Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And i'll be there

I love you :(

2010-01-04T01:13:00.003+08:00

Reached jb around 12 yesterday. Uncle fong kai brought us back to his house from the bus station. Slept until 7, went out with them and had breakfast followed by going to a temple. Headed to a mall for window shopping.Ate our lunch at the road stall then uncle fong kai brought us to a garden filled up with spices. Didnt went in because the spices made me sneezed like hell.
Sat on a rock and craved someone's name on a board next to it while waiting for them. Hey i did that because i'm bored ok lol.Uncle fong kai drove us back to his house for dinner and sent us back to woodland after eating. Reached home at 11.15. Thanks load even though it's not fun.

Frankly speaking,i really miss my secondary school life very much. People please don't follow my footsteps, and remember to cherish every moment that you had in school before it's too late to regret! 2 more days left to my appeal ahhhhhh. Ite? Shatec? Or overseas studies? I'll have to leave it on my fate to decide.

I will post the photos when i get my memory card from sandy!

2010-01-02T18:40:00.004+08:00

Bernard came to my house around 4plus today. Had great chat with him while drinking. 3hour more to malaysia with family and will only be back on monday. What the fuck, I'm starting to miss everyone especially my secondary friends, life is such a bitch.

♥

2010-01-01T11:34:00.008+08:00

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Last day of 2009 was cool! Ber, jh, dave,karen, yiling came to my house around 5 for early dinner which is done by my mom. Headed to esplanade after playing arcade in suntec around 9 but it's already crowded with people, so we trained down to vivo instead. Went up to the rooftop to find seats to watch the performance.This is also my first time seeing so many big lightsticks lighting up. Lots of people were being sarcastic when 'mo xiao ling' came out and sing by shouting and screaming for her name, it's funny although it's rude. Countdown during the last few seconds were high because almost everyone started to play with the spray.

Trained to bedok and walked to ecp after washing up. Slacked until 2 near 3, and cabbed down to simpang for supper. Ber's mom drove us to her house for stayover. Left his house around 9 and homed. Thank guys for the wonderful night.

I'm really sorry/

2009-12-30T23:16:00.005+08:00

Life is short, when nobody can even predict whether if you can survive in the next second or not. Watched avatar with bernard in vivo, followed by sherlock holmes at lido. Headed to downtown for sherlyn's chalet and homed. Time passed so slow today.

I want mr watson's hair and sideburn.

2009-12-29T23:10:00.006+08:00

I don't even know whether if i can get into the course which i appeal for today. And this is the first time where i see so many of my friends getting upset over studies. Seeing them sad makes me feel like i'm a useless person when i cant even cheer my own friends up. Seriously,i don't no what to do now, i'm really lost.

2009-12-28T22:02:00.007+08:00

Seven points is nothing when you cant even get into the course you want. And it don't seems a need to appeal or whatever shit when there's a risk of not getting in. Priority higher? First come first serve? Oh come on, stop being naive when you already know that this century talks more about money and education to anything. Nobody would understand this feeling unless they experience it themselves.

Yea i'm feeling sad right now, but please dont ask me why. Went to appeal for the fucking aerospace technology at yishun ite today. But apparently, it's like a waste of time going there because of some reasons. Meet bernard, jh, kel for dinner in suntec and homed. Life sucks particularly when you put in a lot of hope,effort into something and you cant even achieve what you want in the end :)

I seriously felt unless from this moment of time.

2009-12-27T23:41:00.006+08:00

Christmas is already over, but why orchard road still haven take down the decorations?Anyway today was fun, meet out with primary school mates.Had dinner at lido. Shopped in paragon. Well as usual, they pushed me into metro's bra department. Headed to park lane for pool game and trained home.

Results tomorrow, nervous not.

2009-12-26T18:48:00.006+08:00

Accompanied jh to sgh to collect her grandmother's report around 12. Trained to kovan heartland mall to meet bernard. Brought him to new future shop to buy his stuff and headed to punggol plaza for steamboat. Anyway, this is the first time we had steamboat like at only 4pm and ate it with yam. Played the 50cent fishing machine for like 10 times and homed while the two of them went to amk.

I'm now tempted with BURBERRY SLING BAG AGAIN thanks to someone but it costed like $5ooplus, shall i buy? =[

2009-12-25T20:07:00.006+08:00

24/25th
Merry Christmas people. Went out with kim,welson, jinghui, bernard, jia qi, kelson and another 4 person but forgotten their name. Met at tampines, saw vania and her boyfriend , then trained to orchard for celebration. Slacked near heeran until 11plus and walked to lido as the whole orchard is crowded. Anyway we'd countdown among ourselves and changed presents near mac cafe.

Left orchard around 12.30, shared cab down to welson's house with bernard, jing hui and jia qi while the rest went home. Played blackjack,wii and drank a few cups of beer. Left his house at 10 with bernard to marina barrage for some reason. Stayed there until 12plus, headed to marine for lunch and homed

:D

2009-12-24T16:49:00.002+08:00

Happy Christmas Eve People~

ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: Hmm?
B - BIRTHDAY: o6.12.93
C - CRUSHING ON: teo __ __
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Milk tea
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Everyone
F - FAVORITE SONG: Country songs
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Bears
H- HOMETOWN: Singapore

IN LOVE WITH: Nerd
J - JUGGLE: Balls
K - KILLED SOMEONE: No
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Genting ride
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: None
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: Two
O - ONE WISH: Be with cough cough
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Working partner
R- REASON TO SMILE: For the sake of it
S-SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Moment of truth
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 1pm
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: Spongbob boxer wor
V - VEGETABLE(S): Potato, kangkong or whatever it is spelled
W - WORST HABIT: Scolding vulgarities over and over again
Y – YOYOS ARE: Cool?
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Saggitatrus

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: T N W J U N T M
What color do you wear most?: Black and white
Least favorite color?: Yellow
What are you listening to?: Moment of truth
Are you happy with your life right now?: Average
What is your favorite class in school?: All? Regretted for not cherising it though
When do you start back at school/college?: Start school? Jan 4th
Are you outgoing?: Depends
Favorite pair of shoes?: Those Sneakers that i own
Where do you wish you were right now?: North pole

THE CANS:
Can you dance?: Poledance, not
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: I hate cherries
Can you whistle?: Duh
Write with both hands?: Left
Walk with your toes curled?: Yea

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: Ya
Do you believe in miracles?: Probably
Do you believe in magic?: I'm not 3
Love at first sight?: It was a love first sight on the 2nd of july, met her on the third floor 4 times in one night
Do you believe in Satan?: I'm one LOL
Do you believe in Santa?: Hey come on, don't be lame
Do you know how to swim?: Bronze
Do you like roller coasters?: Sure, but skateboard is better
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: What stuff? Beatles?

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yep
Have you ever asked someone out?: Who doesnt
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Ya
Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yes
Have you ever painted your nails?: No

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside?: No idea
What radio station do you listen to?: 987
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: BLACK PIG
What was the last thing you bought?: CHRISTMAS PRESENT
What was the last thing on TV you watched?: Hell lot

THE WHOS:
Who was the last person you IM'd?: What's im
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: neighbour's dog?
Who was the last person you said I love you to?: Hmmm

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?: Ya ya ya
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: No
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: Eew
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: How about you?
Do you cry when you get an injury?: That's so gay please
Do certain songs make you cry?: Never

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person?: Maybe
What can make you happy?: Depends
Do you wish you were happier?: Why not
Can music make you happy?: Adam lambert@@#

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken?: 1, 2, 3
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: Maybe

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: Abit brown and abit black?
Current piercings?: Left 1
Have any tattoos?: No
Eye color?: Pink LOL jk

IN A BOY/GIRL
Favorite eye color: Anything la
Short or long hair: Both also can
Height: MUST be shorter than me
Best clothing: Anything la~

HAVE YOU EVER
Been to jail: No
NoMooned someone: No
Laughed so hard you cried: Yes
Cried in school: No
Thrown up in a store: No.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: Ya like always
Gone skinny dipping: No

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: Both
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger king
Single or Group Dates: Both
Chocolate or Vanilla: Mint
Strawberries or Blueberries: None
Meat or Veggies: Fish
TV or Movie: Both
Guitar or Drums?: Both
Adidas or Nike: CONVERSE
Chinese or Mexican: Both
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: F you
Cake or Pie: Pie
MTV or VH1: MTV

2009-12-23T20:08:00.005+08:00

Had a great chat with vania aunty in the morning. Went out around 2.15, dave's mom drove dave and i to amk to withdraw money, headed to town to find our christmas stuff. Walked around orchard central, 313, shaw, tangs, cineleisure,paragon,centrepoint and FINALLY found our present in taka. Settled down in black pig shabu ramen while waiting for my mom. Trained home with dave around 7 while his mom and my mom went to ngee ann city. Awesome day today though i wasted $6 on coffee bean and $34.90 on the present.

A light shining through.

2009-12-22T21:02:00.003+08:00

Gotten my pay today. Went over to suntec for my last day work. Carried 4 boxes which contained 10kg of stuff inside like wth. Trained over to dhobygaut around 5, saw ken but didnt talk to him,then walked to parklane's taxi stand and saw gil's fren while waiting for bernard, jh, jiayi and dave. Ate lunch in macdonald and saw fatty walking with her friends, called her like so many times but she ignored me zzz. Headed to hougang mall, played arcade and bought the $49.90 pooh bear at the dk what shop and homed.

LONELY CHRISTMAS/

2009-12-21T22:18:00.003+08:00

Today's working place is at suntec convection hall. Walked around to distribute flyers until 4. Trained to dhoby gaut cathay for planet 51 with jh. At first, it seems to be a lame movie for me but ended up i'm the one who laughed at most of the time. When charles chuck baker's towel dropped on the floor was the most funny part because lem or dont no say 'That's a very funny place to use antenna'. Had our dinner in long john and headed home.

Awesome working peeps/

2009-12-20T21:00:00.004+08:00

We will satisfied with a small little tiny balloon when we're young. But in times come and when we gets older, our mind tend to be greedier and greedier. Try asking yourself what you want?If anyone of you ask me what i want, my answer will be nothing. Because i ,myself have no idea what i really wanted.

Worked in the coke booth at orchard today. Started to distribute free coke to the people on the street for around 15-20 mins outside far east and fainted like wow. Luckily grace was beside me at that moment of time, then she helped me into the f-e-c-s. Rested for awhile and played with the first aids box. LOL, then dad came to fetch me home.

2009-12-19T23:40:00.002+08:00

The person with innocent looks, are always the disgusting one. And my defination of disgusting is worst than a whore. Went out with jiejie today, ate our lunch at vivo. Trained to orchard, and i bought a $4xx wallet for her near lido. Headed to e hub to play bowling and homed.

Punch the wall and let the pain go off/

2009-12-18T19:24:00.003+08:00

I hate it when you're close with other boys. Meet bernard, jinghui at amk and bused to school. All of our hair got caught for being long and mr goh insisted me and bernard for dyeing hair. Were sent to a so called 'special room' to receive our results. Waited around 1hour to collect our stuff and off to amk hub for lunch. Anyway i got 7 points for n level. The picture above are the courses which i can choose in ite. Whatever, bye.

I'd like to run away from you/

2009-12-17T19:37:00.004+08:00

Congrats to crystal for obtaining 200 in maple though it's just a game.Went out with jinghui at 9am. Trained to vivo to meet yihao, kelson and winnie till 2 but i left home earlier cause i'd something on. Results will be out tomorrow, good luck people.

I felt so close but you were far away/

2009-12-16T22:59:00.002+08:00

Hey people, today was great. Woke up at 7am today , played maple and took cab to work as i was late. Reached somerset around 9.30 and went to meet up with the rest. Was sent to look after the toy cart with rachal at suntec. Frankly speaking, it's a really a real bad experiance working with her because she's hell insane, annoying and irritating. Ber looked up for me at around 1pm, so i decided to 'go-for-a-walk' with him near the arcade. Played for 30mins and the bitch suddenly came and look for us. I shall not elaborate anyway. Knocked off at 7pm because i took half day today.

Bought @ cash for crystal's sake as she's lvlling 200 tomorrow, but due to the temptation on playing with reg hair cut coupon, i wasted 25k cash in the end. Isnt it nice? Nah, i doubt so. Had a talk with daddy just now, he asked me how i felt about friday? I went speechless for a moment..but i told him that i've confident in getting 6/7 points for L1B4 :)

My only wish is to be with you

2009-12-15T20:02:00.003+08:00

Wise men say only fools rush in. But i cant help falling in love with you. Short post for today, went to work at city hall. Had 'the-so-called-lunch-' in suntec and homed. What i can say is that the job is awesome but i will be dead if the manger found out that i slacked instead of working.
Cool, 3 more days..Not.

Take my hand, take my whole life too/

2009-12-14T21:11:00.005+08:00

What's wrong with you? Why are you trying to avoid me? Do you know that you're hurting me by doing this? If you're happy with your doing then fine, just be it. Today's work was fun, set up the booth near wisma and slacked until 3. Leave everything to all the new comers and went to find bernard near heeran. Trained to city hall with him and had ice cream at citylink and homed.

No thoughts/

2009-12-13T22:37:00.002+08:00

You've already gone very far away.Perhaps you have already given up on me.Worked outside cathay today, at the singing fair or whatever it's called. Super tired as i've to carry chairs and tables around. Settled my dinner in parkmall. Anyway working is fun, working is good because it restricted 60% of your brain cells from thinking.

Yesterday, around 2 am, Aunty mag called me and asked 'How come suddenly you went to work everyday, is there anything happened to your family?' I replied ' i went to work is just to kill time.' Oh come on, money is not everything. Like uhm, can you buy someone whom you love with it?

Missing you is half hidden, half seen/

2009-12-12T21:43:00.003+08:00

Another day without you with me, is like a blade that cuts right through me. I can wait, i can wait forever. I know it feels like forever, I guess that's just the price i got to pay.

Friday.
Went for job training.

Saturday.
Worked at the coke zero booth outside cineleisure. Made some friends there, it was fun though. Today there is alot of people coming up to me and asked me to write my wish on the ball while i was working. I told them that i've no wish, then one of the girl said 'How about writing who you like on it', like wow?

Anyway what's wrong with orchard today? So many people carrying a white ball around asking people to sign their wish on and worst still there's a guy who asked me to donate my blood. Like Lol? Oh dear little gillian and liching i think you two need to have your eyes checked :)
Money is hard to earn, so please spend it wisely. So uhm, what job will i be taking tomorrow? Samsung? Panasonic? Sonic? Asus? Event helper? Backstage helper? Promoter? Advetiser?Hmmm.. How the hell will i know? I'm not even the boss, lame.

I Never Gonna Be Good Enough For You/

2009-12-10T22:00:00.005+08:00

Wednesday.
Didnt really went out actually, just slacked and walked around pp to get my prepaid card. Bought from ah neh shop,and alot of funny things actually happened. Shall not eleborate any further because i'm tired for now.

Thursday.
Met bernard at 4.50, tpy. Had our dinner at macdonald. Bought some stuff from hub and headed home.

I'll Wait/

2009-12-08T18:29:00.003+08:00

When love is lost, let time flow by like the ocean tide. Time will heal because hate is never a word to describe someone. Forgive And Forget Because Life Is Short. Slept 4 hours today only, sigh...
Left house around 4, dad drove me to meet dave, headed to uncle matthew's factory to collect money. Sent dave off to the nearest mrt station as he's meeting his fren.
Went to court with dad ,he bought 42inch tv but it will arrive in 1/2 weeks time. Shifing house soon. Happy or sad? Don't ask me because i myself have no idea.

Leaving may be bettering their life and no matter how much it hurts u ,there is nothing that can stop her- From S.

2009-12-07T23:53:00.006+08:00

Meet dave at hougang to pass him stuff. Went sentosa palawan beach to find his fren for a while,then slacked at the beach for a while and brought him to uncle matthew's factory for training from 5-10.

Had dinner in the canteen before the training. Sneaked out before 10 because the manager and workers went back. Shared cab with dave and homed. Earned $30 training fees. Shall i continue working? Hmmm...

I'm lost in direction.